The Economy Has Hit Us Now.

Well, we've finally been affected in a way that really hurts. Greg's whole plant is going to only 4 day weeks starting this week. So we can not pay our bills with that. We were living on his check barely before and were stealing from our savings some too. I'm scared. I'm crying and anxious. We're figuring things out right now. After my next psych appointment, I'm hoping I won't need to go back for awhile and that I can find a job to make a little extra money too.

I hate the idea of getting a job at night b/c it not only means that we will pretty much never be together as a family, but that I'll be up late and then the whole taking my Ambien and getting more sleep to help with my anxiety and depression won't be an option. I know that I will not find a job in this little town during the day that will pay for 2 children to go to daycare so I have to find something that allows me to still be home during the day with them.

I just hope that Obama's ready to hit the ground running and has some good ideas to help out quickly while he works on something more long term. Please let tomorrow be the start of something good. Because truth is, I'm scared. I'm trying to smile and tell myself that we'll get through this and won't lose the house or not be able to pay the countless medical bills that I seem to accumulate, but I'm not really convincing myself. Let tomorrow fill me with the hope it seems to be flooding into the hearts of so many Americans.